Sometimes I forget about this place.
I hope you're all well, those of you that are still around. :)

I'll be around every once in a while. I keep too many blogs these days.

I have stopped having the repeated dream and waking up early in the morning but I still dream of him. Each night.

Last night in my dream I experienced something that has only happened a few times before... I realized I was dreaming and I knew what was going on and I was actively participating in the dream. Well, as actively as possible for being in dreamland. I guess this is what is called lucid dreaming. It is rare when it happens but when it does it is fun.

I have recently come to find out that Jason and I are being talked about in the office. This frustrates me a bit. Not that there is really anything to talk about but there is talking happening behind our backs. I honestly don't act any different toward him than I do with my boys from back home. I'm flirtatious in a friendly way. I feel as though everyone is in the mindset that men and women can't be just friends. (granted, I wouldn't mind being more but friends is all we are) Just because we are straight and single does not mean that there is something going on. But, even if there was... IT IS NOT ANY OF THEIR F*CKING BUSINESS!


In other news...I wrote a story for class the other day and it amazes me sometimes how you can write something and it gives you a revelation and a kind of closure. I wrote about a relationship that I had that lasted too long. He was an asshole and wouldn't commit and yet I stayed around. I never realized just how STUPID I was until I wrote this story. It was a great cleansing experience. I realized a lot of things. It was so therapeutic. It has taken a year and 8 months but I have finally resolved a lot of things. I wish I would have written this story earlier. I don't think I was ready though. Now I feel free.

Just finished Harry Potter 7. I was about to start reading it again (like I always do) and I got this strange feeling of finality. Very strange that this is the last potter book. Then when I open to the msn homepage this evening I found this... and it made me super excited.

 

I leave in a week and a day to drive back to Virginia.  <-- That is how I feel about it.